I write, not because I want to; but because I have no other option. I need an outlet to my thoughts, my feelings, otherwise I shall go nuts. I cannot talk because nobody will understand me. I want to stay in the dark and just listen to music or watch TV. Or make a phone call to somebody and not talk at all. I want peace, silence, tranquility, solace... so that I can connect with myself and with God. I want to think to myself and look back at all the things I have done in the past one year. I want to review my activities. Want to ask him if I have done the right things in life, if my good deeds weigh more than my bad. When will I get time to do this?? I am loosing touch with myself and him. Infact, I have been living just for the sake of others for the past few months. Why is it that even if you try to prioritize, you always place others before you? Why???? Is this just a feeling I have OR…
4 comments:
im sorry svat but deres an element of self glorification in ur thots......... anyway, d rest bout wantin time for urself n solace, i agree.... happens evry few days :)
he he he...was depressed... so thought wud lift my spirits by praising myself..
n dun be sorry bout it..
on a serious note anju, i never meant this 2 be self glorification.. if what i have written brings out a wrong meaning m sorry... bt wat i intended 2 say was dat im not living on my own.. im doing wat others want me 2 do.. hav lost my independence and ability 2 think on my own.. n i never meant ne charity or sumthn great.. i was ridiculing my own deeds...
i kno i kno.... dats y i said deres an element of it..lol....... n self glorification s gd sometimes... boosts ur self esteem so don b sorry :)
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